Thursday, January 29, 2009
"you better learn how to treat us right
'cause once a good girl gone bad
We die forver."
lil' queen
3:49 PM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Its Chinese New Year tomorrow!! and everything has ended.
Finall he said he dont love me anymore. and he never know how much i love him. He nevewr knew how much i did for him. All these 2 years of relationship has drain off just that. I was looking thru our promises and those he had said to me, i felt lost, cos why am i so stupid to believe him. Now here i am suffering in pain before CNY.
i knew this wont last long, but he is the one who says he will nv 'B_ _ _ _ Up'., but true enough whatever i said came true. He really dont care about this relatioship. Since when he actually bother to call or do someting when the relatioship is sinking. All he did was nothing. i really wonder have he ever loved me??? i doubt so, if not he would alr do something about it. Even if he called, is all about his laptop. even the very last moment, he only think about his laptop. He never wanted this relatioship, then why he still want make so many promises and not doing any.
My heart was so in pain, i total lost the mood of celebrating CNY, and now i have lost myself.
Whats the point of loving the person so much, when there is no return, not even an appreciation.
I made myself a promise,
Never again to give my heart away,
Fell in love with someone who left me in the end,
The price of love was just too high to pay.Labels: lost in the cross-road.
lil' queen
11:31 AM
Its been 3 days and he didn call him or ask me back. Maybe this time is really a big over for us. up till now he still insist that im in the wrong. nvm, he will nv understand me. all he would do, up till now is to blame on me.
why must always make myself suffering. cant he see what he had actually done to me for the past 2years before he blame me for something. Must i really had to give in to him this time??
IS THERE REALLY A NEED TO PROLONG THIS PAINFUL RELATIONSHIP. Until now i still thinking of those words he has promised me, all those sweet little things he had said. Suddenly everything has become a LIED!! a lied he had set up to obtain his motive. WHY MUST HE BEEN SO MEAN. Has he ever been real to me??
So what if he never cheat, So what if he never gamble, so what if never drink or smoke? But all the hurtful words and irresponsible action is enough to hurt a girl badly.Labels: what is promised?? Plenty of doubtful thoughts.
lil' queen
12:25 AM
Friday, January 23, 2009
What is on the girl's mind??
Bet many times guy has this question on your mind! To be the truth, its not hard to understand a girl. If you really used your heart, you definitly knows what is on her mind. But of cause you must understand her first. Girls thinking is not as complicated as you think. If you think in a simple way, you will get it. We might make things complicated, but the ans to it is always a simple answer. the most important thing to understand a girl is patient. Girls like to play merry go round. so the same thing, they like to say their thought in a merry go round ways. so in future, you still dont know understand her, just wait patiently and listen to her using your heart instead you ear. and one more, girls like to change their boy in a good ways, not because they dont love the way you are, but they always believe you could be a better person. (woman are always the MOTHER of earth). if you cant do all those, please dont date the girl. cause you will only hurt the girl!
Finally he shouted and ask me to go to hell!!
heart-broken and even more disappointed! losing all my hope and left nothing!!Labels: a penny for your thought?
lil' queen
1:15 AM
Sunday, January 18, 2009
What is love??
Why must always be the one to tell you what to do?? Are you really loved me? If you are, Why isn't you doing anything. you say you want to see me, but you dont even show that you really want. you jolly well know where i am, but you not doing anything, you never even bother to come to my house. I really wonder how much you actually know me. For total of 2 years of laugher, sadness, you still dont know me. Its so disappointed. yet you claim you did alot. For goddness, what have you done beside making me angry EVERYDAY! listen its everyday! it just whether i got show my anger anot. I really never seen such a useless and hopeless guy. Chances and time i have given to you, but you never cherish it and yet still take it for granted. I serously dont know what is on your mind. This time, i really dont wish you to DIE, but i wished i could DIE right now and never see you again!! I DONT KNOW HOW AM I GOING TO FACE A USELESS AND HOPELESS MAN LIKE YOU.
I always tell you ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. but you are NOT showing anything!!
lil' queen
4:33 PM
Chinese new Year is coming near! and u have not yet buy any new year clothes. Dont even have the CNY feeling, this year everything seems not right. School just started and exam is just only a few weeks time. and i cant afford to fail.
Hope everything will go smoothly!Labels: im too upset by your action.
lil' queen
1:57 PM
Friday, January 02, 2009
DOES DREAMS COMES TRUE?
Once i was a selfish fool,
who never understood.
I never look inside myself,
thou on the outside i look good.
-Janice
lil' queen
10:50 AM
A Bad New Year, A Bad Start of the Year!!
What can say more when everything comes to an end. Which i know i never wanted it.
New Year Eve was suck, because i quarrel with him, but was surprise that he still bother to come to my house and contiune his plan. So i followed because i love him and also because i can see his hardwork. But happiness dont always last...
We went to check in into the hotel that he have planned. The hotel stay was great, and i love it. We went to joined my sister at the Siloso Beach Party around 10.30pm. The placed was so FUN. they have Bubble Foam Party, Bugee Jump, Small Fire, Live Band and many many MORE!! I have alot of fun, but somehow my mood was ruined when my sister have to leave with her bf for some stupid reason. HAIX! He is such a spoiler. and Andre was even worst, he jolly well know i was in a bad mood and he cant even be more understanding to let me venied my anger. We left that placed at 3-4am! We were freezing cold and hungry! so we went to 7-ELEVEN to grab some food. We bought Lou Mai Gai and have 2 cups of mashed potatoes for FREE!! hahaa. We intended to play the fire cracker we bought at the hotel swimming pool, but because we are freezing cold and tired, we went back to our room. And wasted our fire-cracker fun. But nevermind overall was fun and nice.
We check out the hotel the next day at 1pm and went home straight as his father is chasing for his car back. But i tot he would ask me out, as he promised to have a nice dinner and propose to me AGAIN. (FYI - He is not my bf yet) but none of this two was done. I was super duper disappointed as he have forgotten about these promised like ALWAYS, futhermore he never even ask me out.
Anyway everything has ended. After all the hardwork, everything still comes to an end. Now i have to face my problems myself, as i know no-one will ever loved me. Im not emo-ing but im just facing the truth. just hope for the better tomorrow. PRAY HARD!
School starting soon.. and i need to concentrate. And i must not let my emotional to ruined my future. JIA YOU TO MYSELF!!Labels: Do you believe in FATE?
lil' queen
10:02 AM
