The moment has come. He mention the 'BREAK UP' for the very first time. Finally everything has come to an end. what will happen to us in future, no one will know. Probably we wont even meet. My whole body is full anger and hatred. Angry with myself for being so soft-hearted, Hate myself for forgiving him so many times. Chances given to him equal torture to me. I should have know he will never learn his lesson.
What happen today? i total agreed what i did was too far. But i was in a total bad mood due to many things, work, cramp and etc, and still want to provoke. Have he ever care?? maybe he did, only with his words. i tried to give in by going ahead with his plan, going to jurong point. I swear i never thought that jurong point is at boon lay, a placed i hated the most. So what if i give in to him? Will he see it? Im so stupid for being so blind to so many things. Now i totally agreed that he is not stupid, because the stupid ones was ME! To be fooled by him.
From the start we should have ended. From the time he dumped me for his friends, i should have know where i was in his heart. From the time he wasn't there for me when i needed him the most, i should have know that he will never loved me that much. From the time he break his first promised, i should have know that he is not the man who keep his word. For the first time he has disappoint me, i should have know that he will disappoint me again.
I once said to him that he dont love me at all. But he denied. Now the truth has really shown. Everything has come truth except for the happy ending i have been waiting for.
I really sad and depressed. Not because of him but it was because whatever i did, nothing has return. I did all i could, all my best! But why nothing is return. Someone once told me if you really put all your heart on something, miracle will happen. But why isnt it happen to me.
why must he hurt me so much. We know each other for about 3yrs, and we are together for for almost 2 year, 3more weeks to our 2YR anni. But up till now, he dont even know me, not even a understand me.
Things had to go to this bad??
THEN..
We shall not be friends, cos i cant find any reason to be friend with you.
We shall not contact, cos i have nothing to say to you.
We was once in love, and now we are totally stranger.
Did i asked for this??Labels: I should learn how to let go.
lil' queen
10:18 PM
Thursday, December 11, 2008
This is so interesting, so i decided to shared it.
A passionate kiss ruptured a young woman's eardrum in southern China, state media reported Monday, in what has been dubbed the "kiss of deaf".
The 20-something girl from Zhuhai city in Guangdong province was treated by hospital doctors after completely losing the hearing in her left ear, the China Daily reported, citing the Guangzhou Daily.
"The kiss reduced the pressure in the mouth, pulled the eardrum out and caused the breakdown of the ear," the treating doctor, surnamed Li, was quoted as saying, adding the woman's hearing would likely recover in about two months.
The incident prompted newspapers to dispense kissing safety advice.
While kissing is normally very safe, doctors urge people to proceed with caution, the China Daily reported.
"A strong kiss may cause an imbalance in air pressure between the two inner ears and lead to a broken ear drum," said the English-language Shanghai Daily in a story headlined "Kiss of deaf."
So next you want to have a passionate kiss better think twice before you lose your hearing. hahahahaa.
lil' queen
11:45 AM
Sunday, December 07, 2008
I need to have a new live. and look for a better guy. thought we still talking and hanging out with each other, doesn mean things get better. today, i have been whole day at home, yesterday went to DB-O till 4am, super high and super fun!!! brought my indonasian cousin along.hahaa.
Today at home i have make a new 'BOYFRIEND CRITIERIA'. Its time to change to a new one. hahaha. i shall share it will you guys!! If there such person, please intro ME!!. hahaa. =))
Labels: Got money 'i love you'. No money Get lost.
lil' queen
8:54 PM
