Tuesday, December 16, 2008
The moment has come. He mention the 'BREAK UP' for the very first time. Finally everything has come to an end. what will happen to us in future, no one will know. Probably we wont even meet. My whole body is full anger and hatred. Angry with myself for being so soft-hearted, Hate myself for forgiving him so many times. Chances given to him equal torture to me. I should have know he will never learn his lesson.
What happen today? i total agreed what i did was too far. But i was in a total bad mood due to many things, work, cramp and etc, and still want to provoke. Have he ever care?? maybe he did, only with his words. i tried to give in by going ahead with his plan, going to jurong point. I swear i never thought that jurong point is at boon lay, a placed i hated the most. So what if i give in to him? Will he see it? Im so stupid for being so blind to so many things. Now i totally agreed that he is not stupid, because the stupid ones was ME! To be fooled by him.
From the start we should have ended. From the time he dumped me for his friends, i should have know where i was in his heart. From the time he wasn't there for me when i needed him the most, i should have know that he will never loved me that much. From the time he break his first promised, i should have know that he is not the man who keep his word. For the first time he has disappoint me, i should have know that he will disappoint me again.
I once said to him that he dont love me at all. But he denied. Now the truth has really shown. Everything has come truth except for the happy ending i have been waiting for.
I really sad and depressed. Not because of him but it was because whatever i did, nothing has return. I did all i could, all my best! But why nothing is return. Someone once told me if you really put all your heart on something, miracle will happen. But why isnt it happen to me.
why must he hurt me so much. We know each other for about 3yrs, and we are together for for almost 2 year, 3more weeks to our 2YR anni. But up till now, he dont even know me, not even a understand me.
Things had to go to this bad??
THEN..
We shall not be friends, cos i cant find any reason to be friend with you.
We shall not contact, cos i have nothing to say to you.
We was once in love, and now we are totally stranger.
Did i asked for this??Labels: I should learn how to let go.
lil' queen
10:18 PM
