Monday, November 17, 2008
SATURDAY NIGHT WAS SO FUNNN!! I went malaysia with Shaun, Joel and Nicolas. They rented this china car, Chery. The car was damn LOUSY!! hahaa. But going malaysia, we only can rent lousy car, if not there's a high chance that the car will be stolen. We went there to eat the seafood, meet my friend's family in malaysia and shop. We went back to singapore quite early,6.30pm as we going club later at night. Didn have time for dinner, so went home get a quick bath, watch tv alittle while. and wait for the guys to fetch me up. =))Headed to butter factory for the very first time. Get in for free as my friend is on the guest list. Everything seems fun when you're high. hahaa. but i didn drink much, but the drink contain lots of alcohol and shared only with 2 people. which is shaun and ME.hahaa. Dance like crazy and of cos UGLY. haha. Sweat alot and headed now to PLAY, a gay club. First time there too. WHOO!! GAYS ARE COOL AND CUTE!!! hahaa. now i was even more high. get to see guy kissing and smooching one another. haha. Wasted didn get to take a pic of it. but i did make some new gays friends. they are so handsome, wasted they are not guy. =(( but we can sistas. hahaha. nice knowing them and nice gossiping about guys with them.Went home about 5am and still abit high and slightly drunk. cos i cant even walk properly thou i know whats going on. worst i cant even speak properly, which i dont even know what im trying to say or remember what i had said. hahaaa. The next day, i woke at 11am. LISTEN AGAIN, ITS 11AM. hahaa. i only sleep for like 6 hours. and i cant go back to slp and i cant even move. My whole body was aching everywhere, hungry, thirsty, and was complaining to andre. I know i shouldn even contact him, but some how i just feel like telling him. I was msging Joel the whole morning and afternoon. And you guess what, he told me that _ H_ _ N actually brought lubicon and condom last night. He was actually planning to ....k me. Shouldn say much. it was too disgusting.hahaa Then Joel said that he actually spoiled ...'s plan by protecting, blah blah blah. i dont know whether to believe him anot as i only know joel that night. but its still better to play safe than not, and its funny. oh btw, PLEASE IM NOT THAT KIND OF GIRL WHO YOU THINK I AM OKAY. if he really did that, i serious make sure he wont have his balls the next day. haha. seriously i dont what ... mind is thinking. GOSH. GUYS ARE SO DISGUSTING. okay back to normal topic. Andre came to my house after he had lunch with his dad. Though i wish he didn come, but my heart still want him to. But when i saw him, i seriously hope that he didn come. So maybe i will hate him even more and now im in a confuse state. My heart when soft when i see him which i shouldn. I REALLY HATE MYSELF. SERIOUSLY!!! ARGGG! Why must he do this to me. i really trying very hard to forget him, but now i really confused. Why are we now, still bgr?? NO!! we CANT!! and i dont want to.. i dont want to get hurt again, i dont to believe you again. Maybe we could be friends for now. Maybe more than friend.I STUCK IN A CONFUSION STATE.Labels: Confused.I HATE MYSELF.
lil' queen
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