Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Last month of today, is someone birthday. Everything was fine then. It will be great with everything is still the same. But i really cant forgive him this time round. What did i done to deserved all this. i've been asking myself that ever since that day. I put all my effort to built this relationship, how could he ruin my happiness. Anyway its over. I feel so lost now. Am i able to fall in love again?? Am i able to forget him totally? Time will tell me someday. I felt terrible to face this alone, as i cant tell my family or best friend, because im not ready to do so. Not because im still holding on him, but because they know how serious i took this relationship, and they trust him so much that my mom even help him sometimes. I agree is because they doesn know his weakness and I dont want to disppoint them.
Yesterday his friend try to talk to him about his wrong. And he said that andre knew his wrong and regretted about it. But he wasn. Yesterday, i been asking him to return the money he owe me which is $300 and my cousin $69. And he didn reply till midnight. He called, and start yelling at. Who is he to do that? He owe me money first, make me disapoointed and even heart break. And now has pushed me to the limit. Now he msg saying he is sorry about the yelling. FOR WHAT!!! He always do this, after hurting someone, he only say sorry or oh i really regret. FUK! Since you will regret, then when in the first place you want to hurt me. Its really pointless say all this. Cause i will still believe, if you really love a person, you will never make the person upset or hurt. And you will never leave her alone when she need you the most. So from what your action tells me, YOU NEVER LOVED ME THAT MUCH. is all your words said that you are but your action always do otherwise. This is so contradicting!!! And i will not believe any of your words.
Now he has no right to say whether im wrong or right. He even dont have the right to call me USELESS GIRL. But i have yes! He did yesterday thou i call him useless man first. But all i had said its all true about him. Im alr being kind enough for not call him a bastard. And for this i think i have made the right choice to leave him.
A beast will never change into handsome prince in the reality world. And HE is the BEAST. Like how i used to believe in fairytales, but now i have wake up my senses and face the reality.
Im left Alone, so cold!
Labels: broken heart and emptiness within me.
lil' queen
10:10 AM
